It’s the end of another year; the perfect time for reflection and fresh starts. We take everything we learned from last year and figure out what we’ll take with us into the next one, what we won’t do again and what we’ll try to forget. I, personally, love this time of year - this refresh button of a holiday. And anyone with big ambitions and goals, I bet you, feels the same.
But this time seems different for me. It doesn’t feel like it’s
enough to sit down and plot out a couple of resolutions that I may or
may not accomplish by the end of 2013. There is more riding on it now.
It isn’t a “getting older” thing; I don’t have the creeping sensation
that time is running out. It doesn’t have to do with putting more on my
resume for the sake of looking good or having a more impressive online
dating profile…which totally doesn’t exist…This time, it’s more about
making everything that I’ve gone through up until this point count, good
2012 was a very eventful year for me. I got to travel - I spent a few
weeks in LA, studying acting and meeting some amazing people who became
even better friends. I even got to spend some quality time on the beach
in Mexico! I started working with a new agent, which led me to booking
my first paid gig - just watched my TV debut a couple of nights ago! I
also had the privilege of working on, what I can so far say is, one of
my proudest accomplishments to date, Spaces and Reservations. I got to
see my cousin get married in one of the most beautiful weddings I have
ever seen. And in between all of that, I had some really great times
with good friends and my family!
Of course, though, it can’t all be rainbows and sunshine, there are
always a couple of bumps in the road. You ride the wave as long as you
can, and then out of nowhere you’re trapped underneath it, trying to
keep your chin above water. And those things that pushed you down?
Sometimes they happen all at once. We’re faced with loss (and if you’re
lucky, you’re 22 and it’s the first time you’ve dealt with it), slow
times in our careers, and situations you’re positive you’re not grown up
enough for. And none of it is easy.
So, maybe you keep a blog where you write about all of the good
things you experienced in the past year. Maybe you pretend that you’re
writing it for the readers (which you are…) but really, its a way to
balance out the good and the bad. A reminder. (And maybe your reader is
reminded to do the same, and then you’ve got a win-win). You take the
wins with the losses. And a New Year and a fresh start is a win. It’s a
chance to take everything you’ve experienced, positive or otherwise
(sometimes especially the “otherwise”) and not let them go to waste.
So, here’s to big plans and sincere resolutions. Here’s to
seeing the bigger picture and letting a bit of perspective get you
through. Here’s to fully feeling and experiencing the things you do and
the things that happen to you - and not just for the sake of having more
to ‘draw from’ for our next scene study class. Here’s to remembering
that, if nothing else, the world didn’t freaking end this year!
And here’s to a happy, healthy and exciting year for you all!
Happy New Year